| feeling really disturbed and frustrated. wad exactly is it that will satisfy this relationship? am i doing the wrong thing? am i asking for too little? why is it so difficult? when u give freedom, u are reprimanded for giving it. when u dun give it u are for being possessive. what esactly is it that you want? life sucks. studying sucks. but it's just a few more mths. hope i can get through it and pass and get into a uni and sail through it. i hate this kinda life that i dun honour and glorify. nth seems to go my way. wad's wrong? just wish i have someone who can hear me out, understand me inside out just like Jesus. i should turn back and go back to Him. |
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| all messed up.. wad shud i do?? stay or not? bleah.. just too many things swarming my mind... wad's wrong with that dood.... wad the heck does he want or am i just demanding? wad's eating into me? i must try to understand i must!
nth's up with me these few weeks just that i got promoted and feel damn troubled cos i dunno whether to stay or not... and gastric is killing me with all those sharp pain coming every now and then... just feel like tearing out my hair now.... i wish he understand me better.. really............ are u just dumb or DUMB?!!! |
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| learning the art of understanding... it's difficult, it's mentally streneous but, i will try my best to understand. |
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| can u tell me wad's goin on? if u want to end it.. just say.. i'm tired of everything. u're never there when i seriously needed someone... as wad daniel had said.. u're laid back i am organised. we're diff ppl and things just won't work out. this statement struck me, hard.
guess i shud learn to move on and trust God. realli. though i dun want to lose it.. this time round i learn to let go... guess, it's a brand new start all over again for me. |
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| everyone's life changes... it's just a matter of when and where. Mine is starting to change.. For the better or worse, i've yet to find out but i guess if it's God's plan for me, it'll definitely be for the better.
a year passed, i missed everyone out there in other countries esp lawrence and gladys. wad more can i say abt this two kid. they are the closest to me, share my happy and sad moments. as i said, life changes.. and so, relationships change too. realli miss them both, hell lot. come back home soon!!!
trick or treat was fun. went ard looking like a fool with the rest. but who cares. as long as we enjoyed ourselves. those silly stuff that we did. oh man.. embarassing but yet memorable. my first ever halloween haha.... will always remember that knife in my head!
feeling confused, disturbed and unsure. what's best for me? let's just be friends? cliche. it's challenging to get to know u better? cool but silly. what exactly is love? i'm numbed.
wake me up from this coldness that numbs me. shout the truth into my ears. |
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